Gosh I am tired, and only one more day of school left(I only have to work) and then we're off to finals. I only have to show up one day next week, Wednesday. I have my final first thing in the morning, and then I work until 3.

I hurt, but am in mostly good spirits the PMDD has seemed to calm itself, it has gotten a lot better after I realized how it was all connected. I am excited to see so many of my friends over break. I am excited to see cousins.

I wonder why God still has me here, and how long he will have me here, it will probably be a long time. I am considering getting a "real" job over the summer, other than that, I think I am just going to lay low. Yes, I do realize it's six months to go.

I don't know if I will make it to AR in the Spring, yes I do know I have a high chance of getting back in, but it isn't a guarantee which is a little concerning.

I wish my Sprint bill was payed off, but I won't accept help to pay it off, but it would be nice to have them off my back.

I have all new instant messengers, I also have a new email. To top it off, I even have a new Live Journal, I won't use this one after January 2nd. You'll have to ask for it, or I have to give you it, it won't be findable except through me. I have given it to some already.

If you want to know what I gave a bunch of people for Christmas, just ask. You'd totally know its me when you hear it, you'll laugh. x_X man I am poor!

I can't even think of what else to write, but I know I have more so I'll write later.

• Clean Room
• Study for Final(immediately)
• Play Kingdom Hearts on my PS2
• Appeal for Suspension (immediately)
• Help out mom, with grandma stuff (deceased or not)
• Go to my old high school (even if it's just with Krystal)
• One on One time with Dad
• One on One time with Claire
• One on One time with Mom
• One on One time with Krystal
• One on One time with Caitlin
• Hanging out with friends
• Hanging out with Cousins
• Read a book
• Clean the House
• Get ready for spring semester
• Get new instant messengers
• Give people my new Gmail
• Delete my myspace
• Get a new live journal, quit using a screen name I have had since I was 13.

• My mom ( for the up coming death of a second parent)
• My dad and his side of the family
• me getting back into AR, by the spring
• growth with God, and me
• Trust, with everything, including those who have wounded my soul, unintentional and not
• Forgiveness and peace
• My future with School and sounding activities
• opportunity.

Would you ever say this to a 13 year old girl, who was bi-polar, and on A.D.D. medication?

"'Everybody in O'Fallon knows how you are. You are a bad person and everybody hates you. Have a s^&*%y rest of your life. The world would be a better place without you.'
--Josh's last message to Megan, according to Ron Meier's best recollection
y in O'Fallon knows how you are. You are a bad person and everybody hates you. Have a shitty rest of your life. The world would be a better place without you."
--Josh's last message to Megan, according to Ron Meier's best recollection"

Who are these people you ask?

"Megan, the 13-year-old daughter of Ron and Tina Meier, was the victim of harassment by 'Josh', a boy she'd met at popular social site, MySpace. Upset at his messages, she hung herself.

'Josh'  was later found to be a hoax, the fictional creation of Curt and Lori Drew, neighbors who lived down the street from the Meier's. "Josh" was created to by Lori Drew and her employee to monitor what Megan might be saying about the Drew's daughter after the two girls had a fight."

Lori Drew is a 48 year old mother. The Prosicuter doesn't think he can successfully put Ms. Drew in jail, so no charges were filed. The Meiers went to places such as CNN, so people could hear her story, just after a year when it happened. They didn't release the name of the woman who wrote such nasty things, but someone else did and now her name is all over the internet. She being very harrassed. Now I don't agree with harrassment, but this woman doesn't feel that bad, and that I cannot tolerate.
I would expect this from maybe, a 15 year old, but not a 48 year old. I think this woman shouldn't have custody of her children, even though my opinion doesn't really matter in this affair.

The first site, where megan was remembered, and Lori Drew no longer was hidden.
http://www.rottenneighbor.com/story.php?title=55926 

This is the police report
http://www.thesmokinggun.com/archive/years/2007/1120072megan1.html


Here's other stuff, you can also google, for information.
 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Megan_Meier

http://www.mydeathspace.com/article/2007/11/15/Megan_Meier_(13)_hung_herself_in_her_closet_after_becoming_the_victim_of_cyber_bullying

http://bloggintheburbs.blogspot.com/2007/11/justice-for-megan-meier.html

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I love you all. I am kinda stressed, but what else
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is new.  I will see some of you later at a party.
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Right now my mommy is getting a facebook
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set up by me! :)
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O.K. so here's the dealio, Jill's phone is out of service. So don't call it please, you won't get anywhere. You can reach me at home. This is not the case tomorrow though from approximately 12-3:30, I will be at my grandma's watching her favorite movie Christmas Vacation.
Otherwise you can reach me the rest of the day, and Saturday, I will be at a party sometime.

I loved the way he made me feel, its not my fault and it happens all the time.  Girls get treated like crap repeatedly by many guys(intentionally and not) but will still put up with it, because of the great feeling.  Love is a powerful emotion, so powerful sometimes, we cannot control it, but growth will come apon us.